Okay so this feels like the worst day of my life, I definitely know its not but like fuck I've been smoking since I was 13 year old its like step one of the whole process yk. Right the process so basically what's going on is I'm gunna change my whole life. No but I really am though. Although it is like step one I have ADHD so obviously I already fixed my teeth and started going to the gym (step 2 & 3). Smaller picture, I'm trying to quite nicotine RN I smoked my last cigarette about three weeks ago and my last vape just died. My actual last vape. I know this is gunna kick my ass but that's okay ig. So far I'm shaking a little bit but that's just from my anxiety or the overconsumption of caffeine I participated in today.





I know it's something everybody says "I'm gunna change my whole life." sometimes they do sometimes, well yk, I'm not exactly sure what it takes. I don't have a plan, I don't have all the money in the world, some days I don't even have the will. All I have is this image in my head where I'm doing so much better and I'm happier and healthier, building a life for myself that I love. I run on that image it fuels me. I figure I can do it my way, maybe not exactly in order but absolutely me in every way so I just started doing stuff that needed to be done. My teeth first, it was painful and its definitely not over yet. I still have to get my wisdom teeth out and get them straightened. Simultaneously I started going to the gym doing mostly cardio for now. Both of those things led me to quitting immediately. Cigarettes where unbelievably easy compared to what I thought it would be probably due to the help of the vapes. Now that those are gone and that's over I don't see it being as easy this time around. I imagine soon I will find myself cleaning uncontrollably, spacey, and unfortunately slightly grumpy. I am positive that by the end of this it will be so worth it. Gods someone tell me its worth it. Ill check back in when morning comes around to update you guys about the cleaning and possible grumpiness. I'm gunna sign off for the night. muah muah luv u.

-sky Jo <3